A Letter To Mom

Been really missing you. I hope you know that I do. I know I'm not like anyone else that you know in this world and I know that makes me difficult to understand, but just know that I understand deeply the gravity of the decisions that I make in my life. I think I somehow have a gift for projecting myself into the future and seeing the potential outcomes of each new situation that I encounter. The other night, while meditating, I even had a sort of panicked revelation about my decision to move out of the country. In this epiphany, I saw a future where I was halfway across the world and exploring the path that I feel, somehow, aligns with my true destiny, but I also saw that my family, after years of wondering why I do what I do, had all but given up on me, as the sheer distance between us geographically(and, perhaps, the distance across time) had made it all the more impossible for us to connect. I saw this as if it had already happened and I experienced, simultaneously, the intense joy and excitement of pursuing an existence where I was completely true to the desires of my heart and the deep, distraught, sadness and pain of feeling virtually severed from my family(and friends) who, by no fault of their own, had long stared with vexing uncertainty into the seemingly infinite abyss of when(or even if) they might ever see me again and who had inevitably realized that they might never understand why I went so far away so long ago...

In thinking about this, I became quite devastated and it almost made me not want to go anywhere ever, but then I remembered the extreme wonder of the universe and the deep, burning, curiosity I had within to be out there exploring it all and all of the years of consequential unhappiness I experienced whenever I had ignored all of that and rooted myself firmly in just one place. So, I thought to myself, the ones I love might not understand just now, but this is my chance to look deep within...beyond fear...without hesitation...and truly listen to my inner self and, who knows, maybe even find my true purpose in this life. Some of the greatest philosophical and spiritual minds throughout the ages have conceded, with much wisdom, that the purpose in life must be just learning how TO BE and how to be at peace with that and all that is, but I think the truth is even deeper than all that.

I think there's something each of us is here to do and that something has everything to do with what we each feel in our hearts and that in following those feelings we finally begin to understand who we REALLY are. I think traveling is what I've always dreamed of more than anything and I feel as if it, and the encounters that I will have as a result of doing it, are part of the role that I was born to fulfill. I've begun to realize that all my dreams that I've followed after with such determination in my life were mostly just a means of providing me with the resources to ultimately fulfill that true, underlying, dream of traveling the world and to be honest, I don't think the world is really even enough for me. Perhaps, nothing will ever be, as I see so clearly that there is just too much to see and learn and experience in this life and, because of that, I think I will always feel like I have to know what's out there and seek after the meaning behind it all.

Also, although it may seem like it, even to myself at times, I have no desire to live this life in complete solitude forever. I just have such radical ideas about this life that people rarely seem to understand me enough to truly connect with me. I would travel out to the stars for the rest of my life though if I could and I'd welcome anyone who wanted to take on that adventure with me, but that's just the way that I am. I think I was born with that for sure...that insatiable longing to know what's out there beyond everything...beyond all space and time...beyond the illusions of this three dimensional reality...

In the meantime, however, I travel in my consciousness through meditation and soon I feel that I must set out even further into the world. The need to do so makes no suggestion about how much I care about or love my family or about anyone else, but rather, whether or not I do it...and whether or not I listen to the wisdom of my heart...makes every statement in the world about how much I care about myself... :)

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH!!! :D

Reclaim Your Mind

Almost 2 years ago today I walked out on my job in rejection of all the systems of control that we live under and I haven't looked back since. In that time I've learned so much about the world and had my eyes opened to so many things that I don't think I could've seen had I still been plugging along as usual within the societal framework of illusory reality that we humans have manufactured for ourselves and cling to in this existence. I've cultivated a great respect and love for nature and for all the living creatures that inhabit the natural world. I've rediscovered my artistic creativity and found some new talents that I didn't even know I had. Most importantly though, I've started doing with my life the things that I want to do and reclaimed my mind "out of the hands of the cultural engineers who want want to turn me into a half baked moron, consuming all this trash," as Terence McKenna put it.

There is a silent war going on in the world...a war over your mind and "the powers that be" have gone to great effort to understand what reality is because in that knowledge there is power. The power to control the world and the consciousness of anyone and everyone, but especially those who are not even aware that such a battle is even going on. Those who empower themselves by simply paying attention, however, will not be so easily swayed. They will see this coming from miles away and they will not only be ready, but they will have the wisdom to consider such an attempt as no more than an insult to their intelligence as they too become creators of this reality themselves and begin shaping before them the world that they want to see, rather than the desperate, fear fueled, brain washing that we're spoon fed daily by society, the media and our culture.

Empower yourself! Break out of the box that's been containing you since birth. Do your own thing and be your own you. This is your life and yours alone, so live it your way and don't let anything or anyone in this whole entire world tell you anything different. You're here to create something uniquely you...something that's never been done before. You have all the greatness of the universe within you and you'll never know just how much that's true until you begin rejecting the formulas of life that others have laid out for you. Life is a much more splendorous thing than just whether or not you get a degree in this or that...or whether or not you climb to the top of your profession...or whether or not your credit score is improving. These are illusions for your mind, put there to distract you from your true divine nature, but you don't have to participate in that game. Those things have no more worth, and will create no more beauty in your life, than a musical instrument would to a person devoid of their five senses, but we're told that they're important...that these things are crucial and necessary. Well, I say that if we're going to do everything that the world tells us we should do, then there's really no point to us living this life. Truly, if that's the case, they might as well have not even given us a name at birth, but instead just have given us a number...because that's what we are to those who would control us...just a number. That's why it's up to each one of us to decide if we're happy being just another number or if we want to wake up from that dream and start informing ourselves about just how much of our lives we're living and just how much of our lives have already been designated for us to live...

You Can Heal Yourself

“If you think you have an incurable disease, you are right. If you think your problem is curable, then you are also right.” - Rupert Sheldrake (Author/Lecturer/Researcher)

The mind plays a very big part in the healing process and there have been numerous studies and scientific findings that show very well that the mind can heal the body with positive, life affirming, thoughts just as much as it can tear it down with negative thoughts and stress. This phenomenon can, perhaps most blatantly, be seen through the use of the "placebo effect" in Western medicine, where the individual is merely told that they're given a remedy for their illness, but they are actually given a sugar pill and, in a staggering number of cases, are cured of their illness just the same. This shift in the body is completely due to the individual's belief in the effectiveness of the pill to heal them. In fact, according to developmental biologist Bruce Lipton, "we know for a fact that one-third of all healings are due to the placebo effect, which is controlled by the mind." He also says that, contrary to popular opinion, that we are not genetically predisposed to have any sort of illness, even if we think it runs in our family and that there are multiple studies that show that adopted children that are raised by families with a high likelihood for cancer will end up showing the same propensity for developing cancer as the adopted family has, even though their blood family does not. This strongly suggests that they developed cancer simply because of their environment and the belief systems that they were born into. So, illness, like everything else in this universe, is directly impacted by the focus of our consciousness.

Even quantum physics has begun to agree with this idea that we live in a perceptual universe, one that molds itself, from the sub-atomic level up, to our conscious focus and thoughts. They've shown this most popularly with the famous double-slit experiment, where an electron is fired at two slits on a surface. They found that the electrons were creating an interference pattern of many slits on the other side, which meant that the electron must somehow be passing through both slits and bouncing off itself. When they decided to look closely and watch to see which slit they were actually passing through, however, the electrons would behave as expected and either go through one slit or the other, causing a pattern of 2 slits on the other side. In other words, when no one was looking the electrons would go through both slits, but just the act of conscious observation of the electrons caused them to snap to one position or the other. This is known as "The Observer Effect" and it stands to reason that if the fundamental stuff that the whole universe is made of can be manipulated just by directing our attention and energy towards it, then we can most certainly do the same with our bodies and heal ourselves from the subatomic level up. That is to say that, in effect, just by focusing on our cells and projecting thoughts of healing upon them, by the very nature of this quantum world that makes up our bodies, our molecular structure will have no choice but to conform and heal itself(no matter what the affliction) in order to show our conscious minds simply what they are expecting to see.

The Heart-Math Institute has also done studies that support the idea that the things we think and feel can affect our whole body, especially when it comes from the heart. In fact, their head Director of Research Rollin McCraty says that they have discovered that "The heart generates the largest electromagnetic field in the body. The electrical field as measured in an electrocardiogram (ECG) is about 60 times greater in amplitude than the brain waves recorded in an electroencephalogram (EEG)." They've also discovered, in studies where they measured the electrical output of the heart and brain of individuals who were shown a series of both shocking and soothing images at random intervals, that not only did the heart respond appropriately for each image, but it responded before the brain and, in fact, seconds before the individual was even shown the image. This suggests that the heart is not only the most powerful vibratory force in the body, but it is incredibly intuitive and can even sense things before they enter it's sphere of electromagnetic activity. So, the heart is the biggest projector of resonant vibrations in the body and that vibrational output is strongly affected by our emotions and thoughts.

In the study of Cymatics we can see directly how changing those frequencies of vibration in the universe can alter the very structure of matter. In the video on the left they demonstrate, by pouring salt on a surface and then vibrating that surface at different frequencies, that not only do these frequencies cause the salt to snap into different patterns, but it causes those exact same patterns to form every time for each given frequency. This is how the universe works. The universe, the galaxy, the planet, and even your body are made up of nothing more than vibrating frequencies of sound and it is these frequencies that give the seemingly "solid" objects of the universe their substance and shape. It's what makes a rock, a rock, and a tree, a tree and all these frequencies can be manipulated with our mind.

Dr. Masaru Emoto, a doctor of alternative medicine and a molecular researcher, has also produced research that shows how our thoughts and emotions create frequencies which change the molecular structure of matter. He did this through experiments with water where he exposed the water to positive and negative influences. Simply by wrapping bottles of water with these messages in most cases, he was able to determine that the water that was exposed to positive influences would build itself up into complex and beautiful crystalline structures and the water that was exposed to negative influences would tend to break down into more of a chaotic sludge of sorts(picture on the right above). Similar studies have also been done in water with cymatics that show that certain frequencies of sound(known as "The Solfeggio Frequencies") can build up the structure of water as well(picture on the left above). So, why is all this important? Well, our bodies are made up of about 90% water, so it only makes sense that the same phenomena apply to our bodies as well.

Truly, there is so much evidence out there that shows that our own positive thoughts and emotions can build up and heal the very structure of our bodies and that the negative thoughts and feelings that we harbor can actually break down the structure of our bodies. This means that we are not victims of our biology and that, no matter what diagnosis we've been given, we can begin healing our bodies right now of any tribulation. Western medicine tries to understand the body by focusing solely on the processes of biology, but they completely forget the fact that, beneath that biology, everything is made up of vibration and energy. The truth is, every single one of us has the ability within our own consciousness to manipulate the physiology of our bodies and heal ourselves of anything, especially when we are projecting those positive vibrations to the body from the heart. We are frequency generators and we are helping to shape this reality every day simply by projecting our thoughts and emotions out to our bodies and the universe around us and that universe is made up of vibrational energies that aptly respond to the resonance of our conscious thought...

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"The human heart creates the single most powerful electrical field in the human body...about 60-100 times more powerful than that of the human brain. This is important because the stuff that our world is made of is made of electrical fields and magnetic fields. Molecules of our body are made of electrical fields and magnetic fields. If we're going to change those atoms and change those molecules, we've got to communicate with them in a way that is meaningful and if we're going to do that then it makes sense that we would use the single organ in our body that was designed to do precisely that...the human heart, which is 5,000 times stronger magnetically than the human brain." - Gregg Braden

 

Let Go And Love All

“Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.”  - Dalai Lama XIV

“Your task is not to seek love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” - Rumi

In this earthly existence, I believe that monogamous relationships are a beautiful tool that are here to help us begin to understand the concept of what "LOVE" for another individual truly is. By this logic, however, it also seems that, in the end, these experiences are merely a rudimentary step along the pathway to our own personal enlightenment in our lives and to the elevation of our soul. In other words, these encounters seem to serve as more of a model for(or a way of) showing us how we should love and respect ALL beings equally and one of the best ways to do this, I believe, is to begin considering these experiences with others as just that...a beautiful experience. In this way we can start to relinquish our hold on one another and our expectations of others by simply not locking ourselves down to the idea of having just one intimate partner for the rest of our lives and opening our hearts to the whole infinite world of possible experiences that are out there for us to explore.

Our Western culture generally recoils at the idea of having amorous connections with more than one person in our lives, but I think we have something to learn from everyone we meet in this life and that people will come and go throughout our lifetime who have something to teach us through our experiences with them. When we become romantically involved with someone, we often unrealisitically begin to expect or hope that it might last forever, exclusively, but that's only because we've been brought up with our own limited perceptions of the world and perhaps even of our very existence itself here in the West.

Most of us have grown up in a culture where being in possession and control of things and of the people in our lives is a thing to be prized. As a result, we most often end up wanting someone in our lives that we can call our very own(and no one else's) in this life. Eastern traditions, however, have known for perhaps thousands of years, that in order for us to grasp mentally those higher understandings of life and love and nature, that we first have to let go of all those external views that are imposed upon us by our environment, as well as, the things inside us that often make us feel like we need to control the world and to covet things for ourselves...and this is done through a TRUE embodiment of love.

I believe that many of those individuals who have reached higher vibrational levels of consciousness through extremely deep meditation or even those in shamanic or tribal traditions who have, since the dawn of man, taken ayahuasca or payote or other consciousness expanding substances, that push one beyond the infinitely small minded nature of cultural and societal views, standards and expectations, understand this. This is because these altered states of consciousness allow one to step outside of the constraints of the three dimensional illusions of the world and thrust the individual beyond everything they've previously known into a place where, perhaps for the first time in their lives, they are able to think for themselves without the external suppositions of their environment.

That's not to say, of course, to go out and make love to everyone you meet or even to make it your goal to have as many experiences with as many people as you can in this life. It's only to say that beyond looking for someone in life that we can possess and call our very own, that rather, in the natural flow of things, we can be more open to the possibility of the experiences that we can have with people, what we can learn from them and what they can mean to our lives. In other words, we can take what we learned with someone and apply it to future encounters with others in our life, as a measure of refining our hearts and fine tuning our own expressions of love and through that achieve a higher understanding and wisdom of love along the way that moves us into higher levels of conscious thought.

Then, maybe we can learn to love the people we encounter along the way even more, from a place beyond jealousy and the fear of loss in our minds, as we allow them the freedom to be and express themselves as uniquely as they possibly can and hopefully, in turn, they can love us enough to allow us to do the same. The bond between two people is a beautiful thing to be sure, but just imagine all the things in your life that you couldn't have learned had you stayed with that first person that came along. It can be so easy to become caught up in our own whimsically romantic notions of saying that "we've arrived" or that "we've found our one true soul mate", but in all reality, in doing that we are really only closing ourselves off to the endless possibilities of deeper experience that this life has to offer.

There is another way, however. I mean, we can always discover that same true affinity for all beings by the traditional/historical method of simply not being taken in by intimate encounters with anyone at all. This, of course, has been done by the monks, the nuns, The Dalai Lama, The Buddha and so on, throughout the ages in our world, and likely because those individuals who sought true enlightenment realized at some point in their lives that romantic involvement with another might only complicate or distract an individual from the journey towards a pure, unbiased, love for all beings. I'm not completely sure, that we were necessarily meant to follow this route though, as those experiences of love and intimacy most certainly seem to be an integral part of the human experience that are rooted deeply within our souls.

I think that love and even intimacy are experiences that were perhaps meant to be explored with many people throughout our lifetime on many different levels. Our immature culture scoffs at this, however, and tries to tell us that that this is taboo and that we should be seeking "the one that's meant for us" in our lives and, in general, I think we pretty much follow, possibly unknowingly, what culture dictates that we do because it's really all we've ever known in our lives, but, by this logic, I tell you that I think there are many "one's" out there for us to encounter in our lifetime. I understand that this way of thinking is not a generally accepted view in our society, but I think that futher illustrates the point. The point is, we can make the choice right now to be free of fear and control and all the pain in the world if we can allow ourselves to just open up our minds and our hearts enough to just let go...

"NAMASTE"

(which means)

I honor the place in you in which the entire universe dwells.

I honor the place in you which is of love, of truth, of light and of peace.

When you are in that place in you,

And I am in that place in me,

We are one.